The never ending mental battle of…
Weight vs Size (and how you feel!).
It’s constant right, you look at yourself and you think ‘I don’t look too bad right now’ then you stand on your scales and boom… That thought drifts away!
Why is it that we women (well the majority that I know) can’t get that evil number on the scales out of our heads? We’re aiming for this perfect number (everyone’s is different), we think if we hit that number we’ll be happy and the world will be at peace again!
I’ve seen gorgeous, clever, slim women screw over 3lbs, I mean seriously, over here I’m trying to drop 30lbs+ (in a slow healthy manner) and you’re spinning like there’s no tomorrow, eating lettuce like its going out of fashion to drop a tiny 3lbs… But hey it’s each to their own goal. But why do we make this number the goal? Shouldn’t we be looking at ourselves in the mirror, shouldn’t we measure our progress on how our clothes feel, as well as how we actually feel in every other moment except that moment we decide to weigh ourselves? Why do we let that silly little number below our feet dictate our feelings about how good we feel in our own skin?
It’s not really a question I can answer right now, because I’ve done it and I still do it. Even though my goal is to be a size 10, in the back of my mind that little (or big) number squawks at me as if to say ‘don’t forget me, you want to get down to 68kg or whatever the goal is!
I try my hardest to concentrate on the fact that I’m getting smaller and I fit into that skirt I haven’t worn for over 2 years (I did that today btw ?), can go into a clothing store and buy smaller trousers and jeans… But then when I realise that I pretty much weigh the same it mentally makes me feel bloated, fat and ugly… And this is where I know I should think about that fact that 1lbs of muscle takes up less space in the body than 1lbs of fat and that my muscle mass is increasing… It still doesn’t help that sinking ‘fat’ feeling.
But ladies, let’s stop beating ourselves up over the dreaded number on the scales and let’s get together and try to measure our success in different ways … use the measuring tape, feel our clothes, enjoy our healthy glow and above all, accept those compliments that we get along the way, especially those ‘oh you lost weight, you look so good’ comments, and rather than say ‘no I really havent’ … Let’s listen and hear the ‘you look so good’ part and not the ‘oh you lost weight’ part and then say thank you as gracefully as we can… Because you know what, you do look good and we already know you feel great. The time and effort you’re putting into your health and fitness is paying off, so enjoy it, revel in it and don’t get bogged down by those pesky little numbers. It’s not going to be easy, but it’s going to be worth it!
Anyway, who said 68kg is going to make me happy?! It was me and me only… I dictate my happiness, and therefore from today I vow to not let the scales dictate it. How I feel, inside and out will be the only measure and I will remind myself of this everyday.
So don’t get mentally blocked by the number on the scale… Instead let’s listen to our bodies, let’s hear our hearts and let’s be in tunes with ourselves.
Good luck and stay healthy both mentally and physically.
Love and hugs